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[Oct. 20th, 2007|03:14 pm] |
Sup.
Well, basically... stuff is okay. I'm 39 days into my '90 days to recovery' program.
Dog boy got a new girlfriend two weeks after having dumped me, but I'm not really that upset about it. I mean, I actually feel kind of bad for her because having over-and-over-and-over-and-over analysed everything, he was a pretty shit boyfriend. He was always late, was the ugliest narcissist I know and is spinning exactly the same lines to this new girl as he did with me. So she has my sympathy, really. The only thing I'm upset about is that I am single and don't really know what to do about it. I've been spending so much time with friends over the last few weeks... It's been amazing. My sister has been nice to me as well, lately. I told her how fed up I was of looking plain all the time when I go to school, so she took me to the Benefit store on Carnaby Street. I feel a bit prettier, which is nice I suppose. Adrienne told me that I should always make an effort to look nice just in case out of all 8 billion people in the world to run into that I run into him. And I'll flip him the bird.
I'm also starting to enjoy school a whole lot more. |
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[Sep. 26th, 2007|04:40 pm] |
Rilo Kiley makes me happy.
Even though their album is a massive disappointment, I just can't help but smile. |
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[Sep. 11th, 2007|05:05 pm] |
1. List seven habits/quirks/facts about yourself.
2. Tag seven people to do the same.
3. Do not tag the person who tagged you or say that you tag whoever wants to do it.
1. I get chills when inserting discs into my Wii or macbook.
2. I have a bag that goes everywhere with me, with everything that I could possibly need in it; hand cream, perfume, cocoa butter, a variety of chapsticks, tissues, tampons, spare change for homeless people, spare keys, a pack of playing cards, a disposable camera (for when I don't have my good camera but really want to take a picture), pens, hairclips, paper, and such. It's a Paul Frank bag that I've had since my 15th birthday and have taken it out with me ever since, and when my friend suggested I get a new bag, I just looked at her with a blank expression.
3. When I watch a DVD, I like to watch it with the subtitles on. Some people say that subtitles distract them from the movie, but I find it helps me concentrate on what they're saying more. I also like to watch movies in dubbed in different language, with that same language subtitling.
4. I find myself more attracted to people's speaking voices than their appearance. I rarely find myself attracted to someone who is good looking but has a horrible voice... I'd be far more attracted to someone who wasn't necessarily an oil painting, but had a voice that I could listen to for hours.
5. I cringe when people say certain words. It doesn't necessarily have anything to do with the meaning of the word, just the way it sounds. Examples of this are: snuff; nozzle; squat; exotic; luxurious; testicles; ointment. However, other words really excite me. Again, not because of what they mean, but the way they sound, such as promiscuous, wiggles, paraphernalia, tickle, repugnant, loquacious, insipid, fictitious.
6. I have a pretty shit short-term memory but an amazing long term one. If I don't remember something that happened, I either chose to forget about it, or it didn't happen.
7. I love buying presents for people. Usually if I'm out and I see something that reminds me of a friend and it's not expensive or anything, I'll usually get it just because I like seeing them smile. I do often kind of wish people would do the same for me, but I don't believe in the whole 'giving in the hope of getting something back' thing.
Well, it's been a while since I've properly updated. As you can tell from my last entry, I'm newly single. I'm so sad that I don't know what to do, but covering it up with anger and sarcasm. The other day I was walking through town and got approached by someone doing a survey for Greenpeace and I just yelled at them to fuck off and leave me alone. I don't really understand anything at the moment, and feel really bad. Robin was my first, well... everything, and was honestly the first person I really, really thought was trustworthy and a good person. I still do think he's amazing, and I know that if the impossible happens, and he changes his mind, I'd probably go running back in a heartbeat. But I know he won't. We were meant to see Regina Spektor on Friday, but I offered the tickets to my friend and her boyfriend instead. My friend insisted that she and I should go together... so we did. Regina was incredible, but I was just so upset throughout the show that I wasn't there with him. Then Bjork came on as filler music and I just burst into tears (He played Bjork in his car on the way to and from my house). I hate being like this, but I just can't help it. I'm sad.
On top of that is the issue of being ill pretty much all summer. I've been throwing up a lot, so I've developed not necessarily a reluctance to food... I'm just never hungry anymore. Like, I'll forget to eat unless I'm reminded to. And even then I've got to take anti-sickness meds beforehand to make sure it's kept down. I've lost about 14lbs, but I feel like hell for it. I have no energy, no enthusiasm, and one of my boobs is now smaller than the other.
I went back to school this week. I'm now in sixth form, and I really really don't like it. I feel really stupid in most of my classes, and I know this year is going to go by even faster than last year did, and probably won't be as good. Last year my friends and I would go into town after school a lot and meet up with friends from another school, but now they're in upper sixth and we're in lower sixth, I can tell we're hardly going to see each other.
Other than all this, I've honestly had the most incredible summer ever. I'm just really sad everything had to end. |
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[Aug. 23rd, 2007|10:02 am] |
I am just about to get my results. 2 years of work culminated into letters on a piece of paper.
I'd rather not know what they are. |
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| Wow it's been a while. |
[Jul. 28th, 2007|12:21 pm] |
Basically life is pretty dull. Not bad in the slightest, just not exactly booming.
I've found myself crying a lot more now these days which is weird because it's about the first time in a very long while that I've been truly happy. I don't understand what's happening, but there are just periods where I'll burst out crying if a friend or Robin says something nice, or I'll wake up in floods of tears.
I don't understand, but I hope it stops soon because I hate crying in front of people. |
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[Jul. 4th, 2007|08:16 pm] |
You know what?
For the first time in years, I am pretty much the happiest I've ever been.
Exams are over. My friends seem to have improved overnight. I like myself a lot more. My mother has stopped (at least temporarily) being a complete cunt.
With all of this currently going around, I don't think I'm that bothered that it's been raining for weeks. |
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[Jun. 25th, 2007|02:16 pm] |
My exams are now finished.
It's summer now.
It's raining.
And for some completely unknown reason, with no justification at all, I'm crying.
I mean what's up with that? |
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[Jun. 16th, 2007|10:19 am] |
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| | Crrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrranberrrrrrrrrrrrrrieeees. | ] |
Most people have finished their exams now.
I have to wait another week and a bit.
Stupid sociology.
3 to go. |
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[May. 16th, 2007|07:43 am] |
| [ | music |
| | JOAN BAEZ, BABY. | ] |
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[May. 15th, 2007|07:57 am] |
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I don't get why people are surprised Britain never win the Eurovision song contest.
They could do with more acts like the Ukraine, I think.
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[May. 14th, 2007|07:13 am] |
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Rilo Kiley have announced they are returning with their new album 'Under the Blacklight' on August 20.
The band's fourth album is the follow up to 2005's 'More Adventures'. Each song on the album focuses on a different character and includes the tracks 'Money Maker' and 'Breaking Up'.
The record was produced by Jason Lader, and was recorded at Sunset Studios in Los Angeles.
The album marks the return of the band following individual solo projects.
Jenny Lewis released 'Rabbit Fur Coat' in 2006, while Blake Sennett recorded 'Sun, Sun, Sun' with his band The Elected. Sennett also contributed to Bright Eyes last album 'Casadanga'.
The band are expected to announce UK dates for August soon.
Wow. Two albums in 6 months based on different characters.
I hope it works as well as Tori's did.
I REALLY HOPE IT DOESN'T SUCK.
And I guess I haven't posted about my life and all that jazz lately.
Not much is happening, I guess. I've been trying to grow my nails again. I've been freaking out about the idea of taking exams and growing up. I was watching TV with my friend Robin on Saturday night and got really bad stomach cramps. Instead of being typically boy-ish at that time, he sat and rubbed my tummy. He is nice. I'm trying my best to deny myself any unnecessary purchases so I can keep enough money in my pocket to purchase one of for the summer. It will be difficult. BUT I AM TOTALLY GOING TO DO IT.
DID I MENTION EXAMS? Well, they're pretty shit. |
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| roffulz. |
[May. 12th, 2007|08:05 am] |
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| |  exhausted | ] |
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| | We'll find a cathedral city, you can convince me I am pretty. | ] |
I just found this:
"It's totally depressing how many people aren't going to be staying at school after this year.
I'm not ready to say goodbye.
I don't want us to grow up.
I want to live in the present forever and never have to worry about moving on and saying goodbye."
From, like, September?
And it's still totally true. |
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[May. 11th, 2007|06:50 pm] |
last day of compulsory education.
in theory, i never have to go back to school ever again except for exams and stuff.
but i will.
i still cried like a baby though. so many of my friends aren't coming back. |
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[May. 3rd, 2007|06:19 pm] |
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much too dumb for school and much too lazy for a job. |
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| I have a new friend. |
[Apr. 21st, 2007|05:17 pm] |
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Petunia.
My father was a photographer in the 70s. I STOLE HIS CAMERA. Actually. He let me have it.
The weather has been fucking gorgeous for the past 3 weeks. I hope it never rains again. |
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| BORED. |
[Apr. 14th, 2007|09:43 am] |
Search the terms on iTunes, but count & use only the songs with the word in the TITLE.
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